Saturday night made me feel so loved. I have never felt the way I did that night. & maybe they’re right. I need to stop putting others before me.”You need to stop worrying about others. For once, Jennifer, take care of yourself and put your happiness first.” It was so touching that people came up to me and told me what’s been going around.
The little kids also made me so happy. I just felt so bad because they didn’t get the recognition they deserved. Not once were we able to bring our whole team up there and it was entirely my fault.
& then there’s that other situation that I have no idea how to handle. It’s like, I know that we can’t go back because it’s pointless. But at the same time I don’t care. It’s just so many mixed emotions. Flashes of it. One minute the feelings are definitely there the next they’re not.
Camp got me fucked up. I don’t even know.
Honey, he’s always been good with his words. Take it from someone who knows from personal experience, all the meaningless flattery and false reassurance won’t mean a thing when he gets bored.
I don’t know why the fuck I’m packing your sweater to bring with me, but I am.
It is 6:29 AM and I feel like smashing my head into the wall. Yet again.